Am I finally starting to feel stress?

For the most part, as I build up towards this massive change in my life, I've not really been feeling that concerned.

Stressssss

Mainly this is because I have been really super organised about everything, far more so than I normally am about anything in my life, and so the concerns and fears around "will I be prepared" really have not been relevant nor have they appeared in my head very much (other than those moments in the wee hours of the morning).

Lots of people ask me "aren't you stressed" or "wow you must feel really nervous" and I have to answer in the negative to all these questions as truly I haven't been feeling that at all.

I am sleepy

Today, however, I wonder whether it is finally sinking into my thick skull that yes, something really major is about to occur in my life and maybe it is time for me to react to this. My main reason for thinking about this is I have had a lovely family meal today (blog to follow another day) and have come back to my parents and basically passed out with exhaustion. There is no physical reason for me to be so tired so I am wondering if I am starting to build up that "stress" that everyone has been banging on about for so long.

Looking back over the last couple of weeks I can maybe recognise some other indications; I had a tremendous migraine which flattened me for 36 hours solid (though I do get these) and I also went to bed at 8pm a couple of nights last week and slept right through.

To be honest I'm not too worried about this as I think it would be unusual to not feel any pressure or stress at all about something as dramatic as this. I just find it interesting to try and note down and observe what may be happening.

Three weeks to go and finally it is sinking in.

pahahahaha

This is really happening.